Today I’m wondering about the way things work. I mean life things. I don’t care about how the toaster works. As far as I’m concerned, electricity is like magic and cars are sentient beings who work because I am nice to them. And the garbage disposal is this magical thing that helps disgusting stuff disappear. Blair has tried many times to explain the combustion engine to me, and it’s not that I don’t get it, it’s mainly that I don’t care. At all. When I get in the van, I don’t care about pistons, or my gas to air ratio. I especially don’t care about fuel being injected or belts or fans. This is what I care about: When I get in, and turn the key, the van goes. If it does not go, I will find someone who will fix it. A car guy. If I am nice to the van and don’t call her names, and give her gas, she goes.
Anyway, when Blair lost his job…that always makes me kind of laugh, by the way, because the job didn’t get ‘lost’, we know where it is, they just didn’t have the money to pay Blair to do it anymore. ANYWAY, we really felt like it was the best thing. He didn’t really like that job, and didn’t love the commute, and the pay was ok…but not enough to make up for the little irritants. So, we felt like this was a a great opportunity to sit back and look for a job he could like, hopefully closer to home. Of course we were a bit worried, the daycare income was ok, but not quite enough to meet bills, and we lost our health insurance to boot. Miraculously, I was able to fill the daycare in the next couple of weeks, and between that and the unemployment, we are doing fine. We still don’t have Health Insurance, but Blair is looking for a job, and Tim is covered by disability Medicaid.
Yesterday, I found out two of my daycare kids, Boy and his lil sis, are leaving daycare. Their mom has decided it’s too much to have two kids in care and is going to stay home with them.
So, I’m wondering what God has next for us? Hopefully, a job for Blair? I admit I was wondering how I would be able to manage a full daycare, and the care and maintenance of a household when he goes back to work. Maybe this is the Universe’s way of fixing that. Maybe a fabulous job is on it’s way!:) It’s just been my experience, that having a little faith is warranted. It seems like in the past, I may have panicked prematurely, only to have God step in right on time with the solution. And me standing there feeling silly for freaking out so fast. This time, my plan is to stay calm and positive. Everything happens for a reason, and when you look back, a lot of times you’re like, Oh Yeah! I totally get that!
There are a few things I’ve never gotten…like Tim. But maybe I’m not far enough ahead yet.
I also don’t get cell phones, or the Internet. But I’m happy to think it’s Magic and move on:)
Sending out positive energy that it is the job thing. Or that two other little people are also needing a great day care provider.